LeFish Oh wow, so I didn’t get this - nobody did! They decided to rerecruit, and the reason I didn’t get it was because they wanted someone “more bullish”, which is genuinely the shittiest, flimsiest excuse that I’ve ever heard for not getting a job.
The one silver lining has been that one of the panelists recognised that I knew my shit and could see that I was getting tired of doing the same things day in, day out in my current team and offered to arrange for me to join their team on a casual / one-day a week basis spread over a week. All well and good except what’s actually been offered is a watered down version of that and doesn’t get me anywhere. To make matters worse, when I spoke to my Head of Department I was effectively gaslit and one of the things she said was that “luck doesn’t get you anywhere, only hard work” as if I hadn’t worked my worked my arse off, and put out more fires and polished more turds than I care to count.
At this point I don’t have any other choice but to look elsewhere, and thankfully my immediate manager is extremely sympathetic to that and has been supportive of me looking elsewhere and with a different external interview that I had yesterday. Which sucks that I feel like I have to leave because I like working where I do, but honestly I’m just fucking done now.