I’m definetly experiencing burnout in my field of being an unemployed college drop-out while gender-transitioning during a pandemic,
I’ve had pandemic Jet Lag for about 90% of the last year, and by that I mean that because I don’t go out, my sleeping hours shift and vary wildly and it’s extremely hard for me to get back into a regular sleeping cycle, right now I kind of go to sleep at like 4 am and wake up at around 12 pm-ish, and in my worst weeks I go to sleep at 8 or 9 am and wake up at 5 pm, and that’s horrible for my mental health, and when I have been able to fix my sleeping cycle it gets messed up again in like a week.
I know that i’m quite privileged because I live in a middle class household with parents that maintain me and support me even when I’m not studying nor working, but this past year has been wildly rough.
Right know I’m trying to teach myself japanese, programming, 3d modeling in blender, violin and trombone so its not like I get bored without school or work, heck if anything I feel like I dont have enough time in a day for all that I want to do and learn, but lately I feel like I don’t have the energy to do anything and feel extremely tired all day (that I think, is mainly the HRT)
I live in Tijuana, mx wich is an unsafe (especialy for a trans person) city with barely any green areas, parks or public spaces and that’s the main cause of me not going out anywhere.
Lately what has been keeping me sane is cooking! I recently discovered an asian market, and I’ve been trying out different recipes and it makes me feel good to cook extremely good dishes, some of my recent cooking highlights have been : mapo tofu, biryani, kkanpong tofu, spanakopita and miso ramen. (all vegan!)
Tomorrow I’m going to the beach with my friends which seems like a nice and fresh change of pace!
Vaccine rollout over here has been quite slow compared to the U.S, but yestarday there was news that the U.S was going to sell 1 million vaccines to Mexico, and that the Mexican government is going to use those vaccines to fully vaccinated the border region earlier than the rest of the country in order to reactivate the border economy or some crap like that. and that’s supposidley happening this month, so I’m quite looking forward to that!
I just want to be able to hangout in my friends houses